I talk about my experience with LapBand in an earlier post. This is a follow up to that post HERE.
Life is a lesson. Every day you have the opportunity to learn something new, and every time you make a decision, you have something to learn. The outcome might not always be what you want, but going forward, there is something to take away.
I’ve stated before in my INTRO that losing weight had a lot to do with not having regrets. My father died with so many regrets and the sorrow expressed verbally and the sorrow I could read in his eyes as he rested on his deathbed remain with me. Every single day. It is not a lesson I will ignore, I will forget, or let go. My dad gave up on life way too early. He hated his weight. He was a big man and he was so self-conscious of what people thought. Stamina and endurance were incredibly limiting in doing anything beyond day to day living. He let his weight hold him back from experiencing life. Once he was bedridden, knowing the end was near, we talked about regret and things he could do different. He wanted me to listen. I did.
It’s been ten years. I try very hard to not let fear hold me back.
I make decisions that I feel are best and I make mistakes.
One of those, I sit today, and wonder if it was a mistake. Maybe. There’s nothing I can do about that decision to go forward with weight loss surgery (WLS) right after my dad passed away. At 305 pounds, I was desperate. I don’t regret the decision to have the LapBand.
I’ve scheduled surgery to have the LapBand removed and this happens in about a month. The complications of removal are much higher than the initial procedure. I’m out of the gym for a month. The LapBand has been more of a hindrance than a help. The list of foods that I could not eat was a long list, with almost all raw vegetables at the top.
I do regret not seeing a doctor earlier. The complications I suffer from could have been easily avoided. I can justify my rationale at why I didn’t, but at the end of the day I still should have went to the doctor. For seven years, my normal was NOT normal and by making a call, scheduling an appointment, these issues could’ve been alleviated.
Regardless, I’m scheduled to have it removed. There are so many things I better understand having had the LapBand:
- I understand why people say they can eat around the Band. It’s super easy to do.
- I understand how the desperation feels to want to lose weight and feel like there are no other options.
- I understand that WLS is a tool. It’s not a miracle. Once you have it, there’s no epiphany and it becomes easy.
- I sympathize with those who struggle daily in all aspects of weight loss and dealing with WLS.
Most important, I realize that I lost weight by eating a healthy diet and exercising. That’s how I lost weight. The band created an even bigger challenge by severely limiting my food choices. And I still did it!
Should People Have WLS
Someone asked me if I’d discourage people from getting WLS. No. It’s a highly personal decision and to consider that option, I know too well the frustration and desperation that a person deals with on a daily basis to get to that point. So, no, I wouldn’t. I would encourage them to keep in contact with their doctor and if they move away from their current doctor, immediately find a new one! Get in and introduce yourself and develop a relationship. That was my mistake.
Weight loss surgery wasn’t a mistake. I learned a lot and I carry an immense amount of compassion for people at that point, have gone through the process, and for those who struggle to choose if it is right for them.